sitting on a couch.listening "three litte bird-bob marley,
"don't worry about a thing,cause every little thing is gonna be alright.." :)
holding my teddy bear.i smell my teddy,i feels like him.i could feel him around.
then i thinking about something ,i don't know why i always woke up too early.3 am?
i always dreaming about him.there's me and him,we spent everyday together.feels like i don't want anything waking me up like usual.i want to stay in my dream.
there's a space in my heart and my mind.
it's his place.i stored him there.but then he left.he choosed leave.he left.
i will make that space like used to.it's for him.even i don't know he will come again or not.i guess not.
i guess he hated me.he didn't love me.mybe never.
loving someone is not what you get from someone.but how you loving them,and giving them your best.not forcing someone you loved to love you back,to give you careness,give what you need.
i'm trying to act like 17,
i was suicide.successfully live in a trash.felt like i do't have anyone loved me that much.they've just laughing at me.they keep shouting at me,they keep yelling at me,they said i am stupid,wierd,an idiot,i'm such a loser.well i realizied,how bored he is to me :(
i don't have much things to be respect.i don't have any precious things.i don't have a pretty face.i am me.i am shirley.
shirley who trying to change herself into a better one.being a very good girl.
i guess i still stay here.in a same place.which there's only me.and teddy bear.it will stay here with me.
everything reminding me of him,when he said how pretty i am,tellin me i was his baby girl,tellin me how he love me.
then i start missing him,
every tears we spent,
every happiness we got,
every moments we made,
every stories and laughs we shared,
every jokes,
every warmness that i had,
every words you spoke,
every smile you gave,
every pictures we took,
every song we sang together,
everything reminding me of you.
thank you for being my baby boy.
thank you for loving me and care to me.
thank you for every surprise.
thank you for every letter u gave,
every chocolate cake :)
one thing d,i miss you gede sekali :p
and i still love you like used to *DT
"don't worry about a thing,cause every little thing is gonna be alright.." :)
holding my teddy bear.i smell my teddy,i feels like him.i could feel him around.
then i thinking about something ,i don't know why i always woke up too early.3 am?
i always dreaming about him.there's me and him,we spent everyday together.feels like i don't want anything waking me up like usual.i want to stay in my dream.
there's a space in my heart and my mind.
it's his place.i stored him there.but then he left.he choosed leave.he left.
i will make that space like used to.it's for him.even i don't know he will come again or not.i guess not.
i guess he hated me.he didn't love me.mybe never.
loving someone is not what you get from someone.but how you loving them,and giving them your best.not forcing someone you loved to love you back,to give you careness,give what you need.
i'm trying to act like 17,
i was suicide.successfully live in a trash.felt like i do't have anyone loved me that much.they've just laughing at me.they keep shouting at me,they keep yelling at me,they said i am stupid,wierd,an idiot,i'm such a loser.well i realizied,how bored he is to me :(
i don't have much things to be respect.i don't have any precious things.i don't have a pretty face.i am me.i am shirley.
shirley who trying to change herself into a better one.being a very good girl.
i guess i still stay here.in a same place.which there's only me.and teddy bear.it will stay here with me.
everything reminding me of him,when he said how pretty i am,tellin me i was his baby girl,tellin me how he love me.
then i start missing him,
every tears we spent,
every happiness we got,
every moments we made,
every stories and laughs we shared,
every jokes,
every warmness that i had,
every words you spoke,
every smile you gave,
every pictures we took,
every song we sang together,
everything reminding me of you.
thank you for being my baby boy.
thank you for loving me and care to me.
thank you for every surprise.
thank you for every letter u gave,
every chocolate cake :)
one thing d,i miss you gede sekali :p
and i still love you like used to *DT
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