stupidity

My past,yes it slow me down.

three words,less than perfect.plus one word,nothing.I called it perfect.

I stay far away from "perfection".I changed myself down infront of the mirror.looks so stupid,moron..sort of.

I laughed,I don't even know what did I laughed for.
I cried,I don't know why did I cry.
I screamed,I yelled for something I don't know too.

I'm numb.

Hmm,why do i do that..
Why do I do that,

I tried to put on some make up.then I picked a dumb piece of dress,I wore it.I took that sneakers.then I opened the door.I left my room.

It looks so bright,but suddenly rain came and dancin upon my head.I kept walking.

Finally I found this place,I sit in front of a camera.I pushed the record button.I saw the red light blinking.

I started to talk.

"Mybe I am stupid.I love this silly life.even too many option,too little time.I'm exhausted,too much expecting,spent my days for regretting.

Even right now,I'm waiting for something that I don't know.
When will I go from here,far away from here,I don't know when will I stop doing these stupidity.

Everything comes so fast.tasted a bitter sweet love.dancing with my own tears,smiled with my pain,slept with full of disappointment.this pain goes on and on.

The good news is,you left.the bad news is I'm still crying in the middle of the night.keep dreamin of being a time traveler.

I'm not that strong,mybe it won't take long..mybe just mybe."

Then I pressed the stop button.I took the camera off,and leave that place.

Welcome to my silly life.