my best ever had.

this song dedicated for my lovely boy :)

"when you love someone"

I love you but it’s not so easy to make you here with me

I wanna touch and hold you forever

But you’re still in my dream

And I can't stand to wait ‘till nite is coming to my life

But I still have a time to break a silence

When you love someone

just be brave to say that you want him to be with you

when you hold your love

don’t ever let it go or you will loose your chance

to make your dreams come true...

I used to hide and watch you from a distance and i knew you realized

I was looking for a time to get closer at least to say... “hello”

And I can’t stand to wait your love is coming to my life

When you love someonejust be brave to say that you want him to be with you

when you hold your love

don’t ever let it goor you will loose your chance to make your dreams come true...

"And I never thought that I’m so strong

I stuck on you and wait so long

but when love comes it can’t be wrong

Don’t ever give up just try and try to get what you want

Cause love will find the way...."

When you love someone just be brave to say that you want him to be with you

when you hold your love

don’t ever let it go or you will loose your chance

to make your dreams come true...

wonderful night.

gilaaa cepet banget!!

time is really running out!!!

weww,,

i just wrote my diary,which i'm goin to send it to LA while he got back there :)

'25 dec 2009'

it was the best night.i felt so so happy.like i was the happiest person ever in this world..

thank you for that h.i view,buat sate ayamnya,even anehh rasanya enakan punya abang" weee..

hihihi

*fireflies-owlcity :)

that pink rose,and *the proposal!,also russel's pin

hihihi :D

this is the firs time i treated like someone special,even i know that you didn't love me as i did :)

thank you tigana..

this day you still be mine.after 31 dec.i know i would be trash.

i wish it wont happen tigana,i wish it will not happen :(

i feel like my breath ends.my eyes close.there will no heartbeats.

like now.

it's for you :)

finnally i made it hihi yeeyy..
i'm very happy when u said it was the best gift you've ever had :)
fiuhh..:)
yeyy i met you..even pake iseng katanya ada n*lv huh!!
dasaarr isennggg!!!!
hihihi..
kasiann you matanya masi segitu merah nya :(
i'm very happy!
*dec 16th 2009

this is it.

i'm the happiest person ever when he said,"i am his girl."

"i'm very,very happy.

this is the best gift he ever had.

thank you baby,thank you SO MUCH."



this is the first time i made a gift like that.and guess what he liked it!

yeiiiiiiii...:)

please take me there.

"You would not believe your eyes

If ten million fireflies

Lit up the world as I fell asleep

'Cause they'd fill the open air

And leave teardrops everywhere

You'd think me rude

But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe

That planet Earth turns slowly

It's hard to say that I'd rather stay

Awake when I'm asleep

'Cause everything is never as it seems

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs

From ten thousand lightning bugs

As they tried to teach me how to dance

To ten million fireflies

"I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes."

I got misty eyes as they said farewell"

please take me to the owl city.

wed,dec 16th 2009

i met him for real.i felt so right when i hugged him.

i felt like every pain is gone.felt like all of my worries were left in a sec.felt like there's no pain in my chest,i lost my breath,

caused that moments are what i waited for so long.

i don't know what happen to me after the time will come,

when the time say,"left him,mybe this is the best way to make him happy..".

i don't have any idea.caused i felt he is a half of my life.he is my energy.he is the most important part in my life.nobody could make me happy as he did.

i felt so bad when his friend asked,"did u ever take her to ur dad?".

guess what,it's like i lost my breath and i just look down,i felt that pain in my chest.

i dunno why i could love you this much..

i can't live without you.

i dunno what i supposed to do when i can't sleep,and you are not around.

what i supposed to do when nobody support me,

i feel like i live alone :(

today,dec 12th 2009

well tommorow is his birthday :)

i'm very happy :P

buth i'm a lil bit sad cause i'm not there when his birthday :(

yeiyyy,it's 3 pages left.then i'll finish all of my tasks.

everynight i pray,wish he'll like my bday present :)

even it's just a simple present..

i dun care if i sold my watch,tadinya mau gw jual tu hp tapi uda diilangin ama temen gw huh!

i'm happy,very happy.

i can't wait to give him that thing. :)

*smooch!

i.l.d

13th dec.

dear dii,

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY ..."

God gave a gift to the world when u were born,

a person who sees a person’s need and fills it.

Who encourages and lifts people up, who loved me the most.

I always pray for you, wish u all the best.

You’re not getting older dii, you’re getting better.

Happy birthday dii, you are very special, and u deserve the best,

I wish u a wonderful life, filled with love and happiness.

When we’re together, when we’re apart, you’re the first in my thoughts and the first in my heart.

Have a wonderful birthday.

i love u gede..:)

can't wait to see you :)

9 days left

i can't stop counting the days.9 days left to 17th dec 2009.hell yeah!! he'll comin back frm L.A to jakarta.

you know what?i'm worrying bout him,how he lost his weight and it made me speechless.it's not because i dun want he looks more than the last time i met him.but it's because he is unhealty,he's sick.how he tried to lose his weight,consume vagetable everyday,and exercising everyday.i can't stop blaming myself i'm not there when he needed me.

then what i'm thinking now is,

i can't stop crying if i remembered bout us.when he said,we're not meant to be together.

i knew dii,If we're not meant to be together,what should I suppose to do lose this feelin?

I'm so sad if I remembering bout that.

so sad if i remembering how u had a fight with your father,caused he didn't like me,at all..

it's hurtful,when i heard u say,"shir udahan yah.."

i can't stop trying to reach u back.

it's killin me to see u go away.it's not easy dii.it's not easy.

and when sitting in front of a mirror,i cried.why?

it's hurtful,when i remembering our memories.when u hugged me,and saw our reflection.how happy i am.

when we spent 5 days together.

when we chatted,we laughed,we cried..

when u give me that rose..

when i saw u go after u took me home,and you hugged me in front my house.left my house,left me.

it's hurful,when imagined what will i feel after 2 weeks later?..

all i can do is just close my eyes.and crying.